Stop complaining

Start celebrating

I want

Write down what you want, believe that you deserve it, believe that you can achieve it.
Don't focus your attention on all the things you don't want. Only focus on what you do want.
Anything is possible. Dare to dream big. If you believe, you'll achieve.

I want to be happy
I want to be inspired
I want to move forward and become a better person
I want to start my future with the person that I love and loves me back for who I am
I want to become an inspiration
I want to help others overcome their fear
I want to be a mother
I want to be healthy and beautiful inside and out
I want to be wealthy
I want to experience joy
I want to take care of myself
I want to take care of my loved ones

I want peace from within
I want peace all around me

Semangat!

Majulah jangan menyerah

Walaupun jalan tak pasti

Langkah demi langkah

Menuju masa depan yang cerah!

Hadapi problema

Penuh dengan keyakinan

Kuatkan imanmu

Jika gagal harus kau coba lagi!

Lepaskan luka masa gelisah

Carilah terang di kesuraman

Satukan tekad semangatmu

Berjuang terus pantang menyerah

yakinlah akan kemampuanmu

Kau pahlawan tak terkalahkan!!!

I am

Remember "I am" is a powerful creative statement. It is a declaration. A declaration begins the process of creating. Be sure whatever follows "I am..." is indeed what you want in the now and to perpetuate into the future. 

I am strong
I am beautiful
I am bright
I am happy
I am inspired
I am loved
I am love

Papa

Now that I'm a grown woman, I found an empty space to put away the pain.
The door will now forever be locked. I am saying goodbye to sadness. I don't need it anymore.

The past has long been my identity. Without realizing, I've been wasting away precious time.
I already forgave you a long time ago, but I never forgave myself, for whatever reason.

I understood that this way of living couldn't go on any longer.
So I took the courage to forget, let go and move on.

Here I am now, pa.
A fully grown and beautiful woman, feeling very much alive and free.
Free from all the pain and suffering I eventually caused myself,
believing that this was the only way I knew how to live my life.

But I found the light, I've been digging so deep within my soul.
I've been hunting high and low, been through hell and back, waiting for this day to come.
It's finaly here. I'm free.

I am, that I am!

I love you father, always have always will.
I thank you for all the things you have tried to do for your children.
I know you had it very hard and I salute you Sir!

Very soon, I will be there by your side.
I'm going back to Indonesia and I will take care of you.
I want you to grow old in peace, without any guilt that weighs heavy on your shoulders.
I want you to know that no matter how bad you have treated your children,
I know in my heart, you never meant to do us any harm. I know you love us.

I pray for you, may you find the light from within and
may the 'here and now' wash away all the blame and the pain from the past once and for all.

I love you pa.
I will see you soon!

Your daughter, Tiana

Mama

I've been staring at your picture again. Missing you dearly.
But it's okay mother. It's okay that I miss you and it's okay that you are not here.

I have decided to let go of my anger and painful memories.
They never did me any good, you see..

I will always love you and adore you. I will always think of you and miss you.
But I wont let the thought of you bring me down anymore.

I want to remember you with a smile in my heart. I'm grateful for what you gave to me.
You gave me life, you gave me my brother and sisters.

Thank you for giving me life.  Thank you for giving me my brother and sisters.

Everyday I will pray for you. Pray that one day, you will find the light.
Pray that one day you will find your way to the beautiful children you brought into this world.

No matter how long I have to wait for you to come knocking at my door.
I am always ready to welcome you back with open arms.

I believe that one day we will meet again.

See you soon Mother.
I love you always.

Your daughter, Tiana

Walking and Falling

I understand now, the secret of life. All the dos and don'ts.
I understand now that I am the only person that creates my reality.
Oh how precious it is to have this knowledge now.

It has been very dark in here. I couldn't see, couldn't find my way.
Every year I devoted my time, waiting for the summer to come around.
Looking for the light and the warmth, outside.
Nobody told me to look inside myself.
It's been here all along. I see it now, I can feel it. 

All my memories come flying by in my mind
They used to make me cry and make me feel lost
But now I can only smile and feel so proud of myself
that I'm still here today, I'm still sane and I'm a better person.

I want this feeling to stay from now on.
I'm forever grateful for what I have accomplished
and will accomplish in the future.


This is SO UTTERLY AND COMPLETELY TRUE!