Now that I'm a grown woman, I found an empty space to put away the pain.
The door will now forever be locked. I am saying goodbye to sadness. I don't need it anymore.
The past has long been my identity. Without realizing, I've been wasting away precious time.
I already forgave you a long time ago, but I never forgave myself, for whatever reason.
I understood that this way of living couldn't go on any longer.
So I took the courage to forget, let go and move on.
Here I am now, pa.
A fully grown and beautiful woman, feeling very much alive and free.
Free from all the pain and suffering I eventually caused myself,
believing that this was the only way I knew how to live my life.
But I found the light, I've been digging so deep within my soul.
I've been hunting high and low, been through hell and back, waiting for this day to come.
It's finaly here. I'm free.
I am, that I am!
I love you father, always have always will.
I thank you for all the things you have tried to do for your children.
I know you had it very hard and I salute you Sir!
Very soon, I will be there by your side.
I'm going back to Indonesia and I will take care of you.
I want you to grow old in peace, without any guilt that weighs heavy on your shoulders.
I want you to know that no matter how bad you have treated your children,
I know in my heart, you never meant to do us any harm. I know you love us.
I pray for you, may you find the light from within and
may the 'here and now' wash away all the blame and the pain from the past once and for all.
I love you pa.
I will see you soon!
Your daughter, Tiana
